Exhausted Memories

"To meditate on the life of Jesus should therefore be our chief study."------the truth is I am exhausted, emotionally spent. The falling shattering glass was the straw that broke my back...........with the newly formed widow this week I did pretty well, like bonhoeffer my smile said all was well--it wasn't....the engine was bankrupt, ready to break. ====the woman with the broken back, layed out flat,not knowing how lucky she is not to be a paraphylegic, says "I'm depressed."------really....her depression becomes mine. Without sleep for days. Surrounded by religious stupor--once it was euphoria--but to excess is dares to confront me with my own mortality. ////////be still and know----WAIT-- r-e-s-t........I copy e. E. cummings.......I need the alchemist christy.............I become a loner, hiding from my wife ,,,,, in the other room cold beside the fire, dog in hand, listeningto
frank-s place on xm,,,,,, it is fr-id-ay nite c-o_-ol outside /cloudy --- hoping for restless sleep and new tomorrows--------------30-----